I've already given up on myself twice, third time is the charm

i hate this.
you could never know how i feel right now. ever.
i feel horrible beyond comparison but i know a million other people have felt worse than this.
it feels like nothing can make it better but i know i'll feel better after another trip to the coast or anther show.
but even that seems too long.
i need the tides to change,
because these currents are still killing me. <3
& all i want is for you to finally realize that distance will never matter to me.
'Cause I need you more than just for tonight.

Turned off the light on my way out the door

im proving you wrong.
with everything i have.
i will prove to you that we can be something.
we can be better than you've ever dreamed yourself to be.
i can do it better than you ever thought possible.
i will eventually prove you wrong.
i promise i will try to become what you hope to be.
and then i will tell you,
it's all because of one stupid thing you did.
i will prove you wrong....

we want the airwaves back

the clock reminds me of summer <3
how i long for the
sweet ocean breeze to rush past me.
i mark the day but
then forget it, but it's still your day.
the one i love.
that you'll never know.
the sweet sight of the ocean crashing into the shores.
i dream of the next time i'll see you.
if he'll give me a chance,
i'll be his friend in hell until then i don't
want anything to do with him.
the summer winds remind me of fall but i love the sound of winter.
crying over him is a waste of tears
i could spend on something more light, more
loving, caring, and understanding.
but pain is all they've ever known.
this is my goodbye to him. something less sweet but more like revenge and disgust.
but you're better than him, arent you?
you always were and you always will be.

And if you say this makes you happy, then I'm not the only lying.

i told you how i feel about you.
now its your turn.