i really feel like i made the biggest mistake yesterday but i felt like i made a bigger mistake trying to fix the first. no matter what i do i always end up either regretting it and end up not later or end up not regretting it and regret it later. and no matter what i do i always think of something i could change and everything would be better...and the thing i would change would be something i said.
i need to keep my big fucking mouth shut from now on or think about what i say before i say it and im leaning towards the first. i seriously need her back at times like these and i wish i didnt have to tell her that we couldnt be friends but we cant i cant go back.
i need my big sister.
