you're my obsession, i've got nowhere to turn.
I could walk out of this house and take the train to you right now but that wouldnt change anything between us. I told you i hated you and said & i am sorry my conscience called in sick again..and ive got arrogance down to a science. Becuase everytime i speak my mind im leaving you behind and placing another in your place. Someone who treats me better. I hope the guilt trip suffocates you.
of course, hes friends with the girl i once put first before anyone, we were very close and i had to leave her behind. im rememinded everyday how much of a mistake i made that day, im reminded by the people who ive replaced her with. im so far away from her now & i cant turn back. no matter how much i want her to be here by my side helping me through times like these like she did before. i cant go back. & Im going deaf from the "i told you so"s
and im sorry for the pain ive cause you big sister and i hope you're doing well. i miss you more than i did before, but i cant go back. i cant turn around and i hope you know i regret every single word i said. i hope you forgive me.. and im going to let you know that i dont care if you lied about everything you said, i just want to let you know that i still miss you more than anything and im sorry for how our friendship had to end. i still think of you as the sister i never had. no matter what happens...
