the alcohol running down my throat cant possible drown out the 2 a.m. lonliness. I can feeling coming now and noone can stop it. i want someone to be intelligent for once, a guy who likes me and has a brain would be nice. the record spins and spins but it doesnt make a sound.
lets play this game of apologize and hide. as if i would suddenly become a bitch and start yelling at you about how you wronged me and how i wasted my time on a boy like you. even if its true. the only thing i hate more that being ignored is having someone hiding when they know, i know exactly where they are. i figured you be more a of man than that. you're a mess and its pathetic. i did waste my time but why would i bother telling you that? if you arent going to talk to me.. why apologize?
my head's spinning around like a record and i dont know when the songs going to end. the bottle's so inviting i can help but give in. i feel like i need it every minute and if i dont take one more drink im going to feel weak again, so weak it reminds me of how i felt every second i was with him, but not in the butterflies in your stomache kind of feeling. the feeling that you cant pull away because they are your crutch, and you're waiting for something better but they find it before you.
and i suddenly know why people get drunk all the time.
