these days have been so fucked up i cannot seem to jump into the future with everyone bringing the past with us instead of burying it. fuck the way everyone wants to bring up things when others want to forget them. although fixing how people feel about the past makes the future a whole lot less awkward. fuck it, im putting an end to this, i dont want to feel like this anymore.
It's so pathetic, I make myself sick. i dont want you, i dont want you, i dont fucking want you but everytime i see you i start going into i-really-dont-like-you-i-swear-to-god-i-dont-please-stop-looking-at-me-like-that mode. maybe my dream about us will come true but i doubt it. i honestly wouldnt mind if it didnt come true.
